My Weight
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For as long as I can remember, I have never been overly happy with my weight – apart from when I was pregnant and shortly after giving birth. I wasn’t exactly fat when I was younger, but I wasn’t slim either. Then as I’ve gotten older, my weight has just increased with me.
The reason is I LOVE food and hate exercise. It’s as simple as that.
Well, things have to change. I am at the point now where I am really unhappy with how I look! Did you know that I weigh more now than when I was 22 months pregnant? At least it felt like I was pregnant for 22 months.
But What About Being Confident In Your Own Skin?
So, I know I’ve spoken about body image before in ‘Being Confident In Your Own Skin‘ and how we should accept ourselves for who we are, and I still stand by that. Anyway, for a while, I was happy with how I looked.
But right now, I’m unhealthy and unhappy. My clothes no longer fit, and I’m uncomfortable. And probably the most annoying things are the dreaded chub-rub and my back fat touching. If you know, you know.
Weight Fluctuations
My weight has always fluctuated, as you can see from my pictures below:
I was so happy with how my body looked after giving birth. Due to breastfeeding, the pregnancy weight just fell off, and I could eat what I wanted and still didn’t gain weight. It was amazing!
2011 was probably the best and the worst. I’ll be honest; I still love how I look in that picture. I was nine stone. However, looking back, I think I had the starting of an eating disorder.
I would survive on the bare minimum food that I could. After work, I would go to the gym and then come home and do another workout. It was extremely hard work. And yet I still wasn’t happy with how I looked. I wanted to lose more weight. According to my BMI for my height, I could lose another half a stone. Yet, I had pushed my body to the limit to look like that. Living how I was, was definitely not maintainable.
So Why Am I Telling You All This?
Well, because I know that losing weight won’t make me happy. But I will be more comfortable. Plus, if I say it aloud and document my journey, there’s no excuse then.
This is what I look like today:
MY WEIGHT: 14st 2 lbs and a half. This is the most that I have ever weighed 😔
Yes, that is an awful picture, but this is me right now. My after picture is going to look incredible next to this one 🤣
Conclusion
I’m not going to be overly strict with myself at the start. I will start slowly and make small changes using what I learned when I was doing Slimming World a few years ago. Hopefully, then I’ll be more likely to stick with it. The weight that I am comfortable around is 11st, so I think that is what I’ll aim for.
And I think that’s it for now. Wish me luck.
Also, pray for my family – I get HANGRY!
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So I’ve just decided to really start making a determined, focused effort to lose weight. I hear your pain, I hate exercise too. It’s just there are so many other things I want to (read, write, blog, crochet, even clean) that comes before working out for me. I don’t enjoy cardio workouts, or running or weight lifting. So yes, it is HARD! The struggle is real. I have a meal plan I am following, and we shall see. Good luck to us!
It’s hard work being healthy, isn’t it? Naughty food just tastes far too good! What’s quite good is housework, cleaning and gardening can all be their own little workout. Good luck! We can do this! I feel like there’s no backing out now that I’ve posted about it!
I love how open and honest this post is and I wish you every bit of happiness and success on your journey! I have also always struggled with my weight fluctuating for various reasons, but I’m trying to lose a few pounds now just through healthier eating and doing what I can to make myself feel better in my skin! There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being curvy, but there’s also nothing wrong with changing your body if you’re unhappy 💛
Thank you so much! Yes, that’s exactly how I feel too. If you’re happy, why change? I’m not going to make drastic changes, just thinking before I actually eat! xx